The Rudder

$36,690

That's the monthly amount required by the lenders to pay back debt on a plan as proposed by Consumer Credit Counselors (CCCS) yesterday. That is the institution many lenders and crdit card companies require you to use for a five year payback plan.

When I heard that number I started laughing. She said "What a great attitude you have." I told her I can't worry about it because it is out of my control. "Well, obviously you are going through this to be an influence on others going through the same thing. So many people I council are in such despair."

In an earlier blog I commented how we go through stuff many times so we can relate and help others.

At this point I just need to live in God's economy. As I learn to seek Him as the object of my life's energy, my purpose, goals, ambition, and yes, significance, all need to line up with His will. This world will always be dynamic, changing and unstable. But God is the one constant, as many have witnessed in the past couple years, the world shifting like sand beneath our feet. People all over are experiencing a new level of insecurity because their hope was misplaced in things rather than in God. Fear of the future, despair, anxiety and restlesnes all linger just beneath the surface, when all that is seen is the tip of the iceberg.

"Be content with what God sent." When I am content with what I have today, I can rest in His promise that "I will never leave you, nor forsake you." God is basically saying that in man's economy I am vulnerable; everything can be swept away and forsaken...except Him.

As I am refined to place everything under His Lordship, my role as a steward becomes clear by being generous with all entrusted to me. Not so in man's economy where sucess is measured not in lives but in toys and accumulation of stuff.